What Does Being Perfect Mean to You?

 What does perfect mean to you? Does it consist of just living and being happy day to day? Does it mean making big money, the flashy type, being popular with everyone? Or does it mean taking care of business knowing everyday you gave it your best shot whether you live to see tomorrow or dying trying to make things better? Perfect is undefined in everyone's eyes. I'm dying to be a better person then I use to be. I struggle to make the best of my situation. I love seeing me overcome every little thing day by day. Perfect to me is making mistakes and learning from them. Trying my best and not giving up and making sure I give it my best everyday. I might not be where I want to be but one day I will be. Being perfect to me is not giving in to society, not giving up on hope, making everything worth it at the end.

Wow..this semester flew by!!!

This semester flew by and the only good thing about it is I can sleep in for a minute. Now, I can try to maintain two jobs until school starts again. I love my life everything is falling into place. I got a 2007 car, an apartment, a great job paying $11 an hour working 7 days a week, and still in school to better myself. I feel great!!!! I came a long way from being raped by 3 dudes, got jumped by 10 girls, and got out of an abusive relationship. I love having to experience what I went through because it makes me who I am.

Come Back Home

After awhile you start missing a part of you
Something special to you and in your heart it grew
A love from that special someone that's gone
Took the key to your heart and ran away from home
Left you at home wondering will he come back
Looking for love knowing you missing that
Wanting to call your boo and see if he's okay
Knowing he has a girl and you won't know what to say
All you know is that he has left you alone
You want to find all the right words for him to come back home
Trying to stay busy and get him out your mind
Thinking of yourself knowing you would be just fine
You have a headache from crying all night
Knowing that in your heart you're losing the fight
Took a couple of months to get grown
Knowing what you want and that's for him to come back home
The first boy you would always want in your heart
He put it on you and turned you out right from the start
Thinking back missing the way y'all sexed like crazy
So in love with each other y'all would go have on a baby
Now just have no one to fill his sexy moans
You miss him and you really want him to come back home

Wanting Love

I think about a lot when I lay my head down
Like how I'm ready for a real man now
Not the ones that still play games
But the ones willing to share last names
Having no trouble giving me what I want
Enjoy talking me places just to flaunt
And for you I would do the same
When you're in love you're not ashamed
Happiness is ready to hold my hand
Love told me to pick my man
As long as I'm a lady it will last
All I have to do is not repeat the past
What can I say if that's all he ask
It's not a very hard task
Especially when you need and want something this bad
You look at other couples and get mad
Seeing things you wish you had
Wishing love didn't make you sad
Being loved once keep you wishing for more
But it's not like you can buy it in a store
I want something real like from up above
I hate when I am wanting love

Love Race

Loving you is all I wanna do
But I can't knowing she's trying too
In my mind it's a race
Something I don't wanna face
You place us both at start
Then whoever win gets your heart
Then if we tie you got to choose
But not if one of us lose
But in the process one of us will get hurt
One of us will be in the dirt
But if you cut me off like completely done
Then that mean that she has won
But if what we have is real
Then I'll be the one you feel
You always saying that I'm number 1, the love of your life
Then prove it and make me your wife
Sharing the history that we share
Is mainly why I really care
Come on just look me in my face
Can't you tell baby I really wanna win this love race

What Is The Meaning of Friendship?

  I wonder what is the meaning of friendship? Then when you figure that out at what expense will you pay of being someone's friend?  I had a friend for almost a decade.  Wow, I seem old but it's true.  I'm 23 years old and I had a friend since I was 17 years old. I never had an argument or a fight with her. I can never recall a time when we ever judged each other or even left each other side. It's crazy to me because every since she left to Kentucky to be with whom she wanted to spend her life with, I never met anyone like her. I had friends judge me, argue with me, fall out so bad that we could never be friends again, and even try to even control. I thought I found someone just like my friend that had moved but someone killed her March 4,2011.  An aweful day and it opened my eyes to a lot of things. I'm just wondering what do friendship mean to people? I value my friendships.  It hurts to lose a friend and most of the time I try not to make anymore because the outcome always hurt me!!

Men!!!!!

          It is something about men that women will never figure out.  I love my man but it is things about him I will never know.  Why was I the one he chose to be with?  Why was I the one he chose to cheats on?  Why was my heart broke?  Why do he lie to me?  Why do he buy me things and is it a form of guilty?  These are questions that we ask ourselves as women but we never seem to be unhappy until they are not around.  It is very confusing that we still stay when it hurts us more but if we leave we hurt way more than a man ever will.  We living off the love that we once had and not the love that has become.  Why as woman do we stay with men that we can never understand?